home bored .

I think tht I've never been so bored in my life , how I've been bored today . today I went to fordham to pay the cable bill for my mother , &' on my way back home I saw the cutest white boy ever , he was really cute ^.^ anywaaaaaays I've been thinking lately about 613 , the reason for the number is because is a secret number between me & my bffs . but anyways I've been thinking lately & I don't know what to do anymore . i love tht person so much & writting this right now my tears are coming out , I jst have to accept the fact tht we are NEVER going to be together &' tht he has no feelings for me wht so ever because if he did he would show a little something something right ? but anyways I think tht I'm jst going to forget about him , but I've been saying tht for a year now &' i still care about him the way i did since day one . me & my bestfriend were talking about how I should change w` him &' since i can't forget about him I think tht I'm going to go w` the plan because if i let things stay the way they are nothing will ever change &' i will never be happy ): I'm going to try my best , &' see wht's going to happen . but i really do love him so much , i never felt this way about someone before ; i think i need help [ LOL ] but anyways WOW i think tht this has been the longest blog tht i have ever posted . well I'm going to go now . latuuuuuuuuuur x]